Am I ready?

Am I ready for school to start back? Am I ready to homeschool 7th, 4th, 3rd and preschool? Am I ready for my 12 year old to grow up now that she looks it with her braces? Am I ready for the fall schedule of soccer, science, school, practices and everything else? Am I ready for any of this?

NO....................the answer is plain and simple.....NOOOOOOOO......I am NOT ready! My head starts spinning just thinking about it. I can't sleep at night, thinking about it. When will I learn to trust in the Lord? When will I remember that He is in control, His timing is perfect, and through Christ all things work for the good of those who love Him? WHEN???? It is not right now. I feel overwhelmed, frazzled, scatterbrained, forgetful, stressed, ready to explode at any moment. I think I need a breather.....time to look at everything and relax. I need to trust in God for all my needs and I am having a harder time this year than ever, passing the torch to Him. I so want to be in charge....I want to be in the drivers seat, but I have to remember, if I am in the drivers seat.......where is God? Where are my priorities? GOD has to be my First Priority, to glorify Him in all I do.

Lord, hear my prayer that I will trust in you, that I will turn to you for all my needs. I know that you know my heart better than I know my own heart. Lord, please help me to cast my cares, worries, and concerns on you, for you will give me the rest that I need......you will sustain me. Thank you Lord, for loving a sinner like me and still saving me. Amen.

Melt Downs, Screams and More...

WOW....whew, we are exhausted around here. Our 2 year old has really brought out the worst in me the last 2 days. I am really about to pull my hair out!!! I don't know what to do with her and I can't keep my cool long enough to teach my kids peacefully. I keep thinking about a book I once started reading called "Homeschooling with a Meek and Quiet Spirit". It is a WONDERFUL book, but only a reminder to me of what I will never be. :( I know that the Lord is trying to teach me something, but WHAT???? Enough already!!?? Ha Ha Ha A friend of mine once told her husband that she and the Lord had a different understanding of what she could handle. I like that quote and I agree!! I feel so overwhelmed!! My homeschool is not getting off to the best start, my toddler is unruley, my son screams in nursery at church to the point of throwing up, and he still gets me up 2-3 times a night!!! When will the Madness End??? Is there Light at the end of this dark tunnel?? CALGON!! TAKE ME AWAY!!!